Tolle, the well known author of "The Power of Now", has been
the catalyst who has, without knowing me personally at all, been the one
that changed everything.
somehow figured out in the year 2001 that I was always in either the past
or the future, and wasn't really very much in the present at all. Because
that didn't seem like a good thing, I set out in my usual way to find
my way through such things, I searched "living in the present"
at amazon.com. Up came "The Power of Now" in all its forms,
along with a selection of other books. I ordered two other books too,
not knowing, but don't even know what those books were now. I was so taken
with "The Power of Now" that I'm not sure I ever read them.
Power of Now" seemed so clearly to be coming from the same source
that I was experiencing as the source of my personal guidance, which I
understood intellectually to be my own Self, but which I was yet unable
to experience as such. To have a book so clearly coming from that source
was absolutely riveting.
tried to register for a retreat with Eckhart Tolle in October of 2002
but it was already full with a huge waiting list in February when I tried
to register. By some stroke of luck, by August I was given a space and
was pleased yet also I remember being kind of confused. I couldn't understand
why I was going, because I thought he had already said it all in a book,
so why was I going? What more could I possibly be expecting, I remember
it came time to go to the retreat, I mostly remember just sitting there
with a great big silly grin on my face, totally being delighted by Eckhart's
way of being with us. There were 450 of us in the big hall at Omega Institute,
and it was just a matter of sitting there and listening to Eckhart for
five days. In between his talks I think I was very quiet.
between the beginning and the end of that retreat, something irrevocably
changed for me. I was immersed in bliss, and knew that everything that
I had ever wanted as a spiritual seeker had now arrived, and there was
nowhere else to go. Somehow it seemed that Eckhart Tolle had handed it
all to me on a silver platter. My old life ceased operating the way it
had before, and there was a long way to go to learn how to live from this
new place, but that was it. All sense of need or lack was gone and everything
not only appeared to be perfect as it was, radiating with love and life,
but that also pervaded me and made it so that any personal problems appeared
to have vanished.
course, Eckhart Tolle knew nothing of this because he personally hadn't
done anything, although it took a while for that to sink in. It was the
awakeness that was speaking through him that somehow woke me up. He is
such a clear clear channel. I owe him an infinite debt just for being
so clear, and for being there at the right time for me. It felt like I
owed him more than I owe my mother who bore me, but at the same time its
not him. Its the awakeness that I owe. The awakeness that took him, took
has been over four years since this happened and it has not faded or wavered
at all. All that changes is how much of a commotion the "me"
is making at any given time, which may or may not be obscuring the perfect
unity underneath. The underlying foundation never wavers at all, but steadies
whatever is happening in my personal life. And when I give it the space,
it lives life through me, as me.
is such a gratitude to Eckhart, although I suppose This incredible life
I get to live is the culmination of everything, and Eckhart just played
a special catalytic role at the right time.
I would like to include a wonderful quote from "The Power of Now"
with your mind creates an opaque screen of concepts, labels, images, words,
judgments, and definitions that blocks all true relationship. It comes
between you and yourself, between you and your fellow man and woman, between
you and nature, between you and God. It is this screen of thought that
creates the illusion of separateness, the illusion that there is you and
a totally separate "other." You then forget the essential fact
that, underneath the level of physical appearances and separate forms,
you are one with all that is."
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